My Story
My Mornings Today
I Wake up from a Deep Sleep. The Sun Slowly Shines through the Blinds. The Bed is Comfortable, Warm, and I'm Snuggled up to My Nose. I Stretch Contentedly and Smile. I Slept all Night. It Seemed as if I Had just Closed My Eyes a Moment Ago, and Suddenly It's Morning. I'm Fresh and Rested, and after I get out of Bed, I Eagerly and Energetically Dive into My Daily Tasks.
However, the path to this contented morning was one of learning and working on myself.
My Mornings in the Past
Some Time Ago, My Mornings Looked Completely Different. My Mornings Were Still in the Dark. Light from Street Lamps Penetrated through the Blinds, and I Wondered if I Had Slept. Judging by how My Body Felt, Probably not. I Couldn't Even Move from Fatigue. My Heart Started Racing Again at Full Speed, and My Mind Swirled like a Whirlwind, and I Couldn't Stop the Stream of Thoughts.
I Felt Sick. I could Barely get out of Bed, My Head Was Spinning, and Tears Were Welling up in My Eyes. Another Sleepless Night! How many in a Row?? Why is this Happening to Me? What Have I Done to Anyone to be Deprived of Sleep? How Long Can I Endure this? Tears Were Now Streaming down My Cheeks.
I Collapsed onto the Couch in the Living Room and Let My Emotions Flow.
How many Over-The-Counter Sleeping Pills Had I Tried, how many Doctors or Psychiatrists Had I Visited, how many Prescription Medications Had I Received, how many Guaranteed Tips and Tricks for Sleep Had I Tried, and Nothing in the World Guaranteed that I Would Fall Asleep.
I'm Completely Alone in this. No one Can Understand Me. In 8 Years, I Haven't Met a Single Person who Had the Same Problem as Me. I'm Weird. I Feel Despair and Hopelessness, if a Body so Long Deprived of Sleep Can Feel Anything at all. I'm not Sleeping without an Apparent Reason, No one Can Answer My Question. Why Am I not Sleeping, What's Happening to Me.
The Turning Point
Things Started to Change when I Found a New Perspective on Insomnia. Did You Know that There's No Quick Fix? It's Because Sleep is a Passive Process, like Digestion or Breathing. Anything You Actively Do to Try to Sleep therefore Won't Work. Sleep Can't be Controlled, We Can't just Decide "and Now I'll Fall Asleep". It Requires Creating the Right Conditions, Especially in our Mind. Understanding that My FEAR of another Sleepless Night and the Possible Complications that Follow is What Prevents Me from Falling Asleep Peacefully Was the Turning Point, but I Still Had a Lot to Learn. After I Overcame Insomnia and Realized that I'm not the Only one with this Problem, that People all over the World Suffer from Insomnia, I Found Inner Joy and Satisfaction in Helping these People. I Showed Them Insomnia from a Different Perspective.
